One thing I used to do when I wrote a lot was to be completely bare honest. I stopped doing that because I was afraid of what people think of me. In doing so, I’ve stunted my growth. People who read my stuff will either have to accept me as I am or find someone else to read. That’s the decision I’ve come to.
Thank you for reading.
Dear Heavenly Father,
I have a hard time trying to build a consistent and deep relationship with you.
Perhaps it is because I have very few if any deep relationships.
I don’t understand what relationships are and how they can add value to life.
Today is August 12, 2013. I want today to be a turning point in my walk with you.
Everyday in every way I want my relationship with you to deepen.
Whenever I lose my focus and don’t spend consistent time with you – I lose focus and walk down a path that I don’t want to go.
I beg for your help that I can turn my daily time with you into something meaningful for me personally first.
From there it positively influences those around me.
Thank you for your infinite patience and not smiting me for my sins.
I love you and want to love you – more deeply every day.
In Jesus Name I ask.
In an effort to put into action immediately. I’m going to my favorite book of the Bible. Proverbs. Proverbs conveniently has 31 chapters so you can repeat one chapter everyday of the month.
Today is the twelfth so I will read Proverbs 12.
1 Whoever loves discipline loves knowledge,
but whoever hates correction is stupid.
God knows exactly what I need. This scripture is always encouraging and convicting at the same time. I need to continue to add discipline in my life. I love knowledge and I hate being stupid. Therefore, I need to be disciplined and love correction – both very challenging, but worth it.
2 Good people obtain favor from the Lord,
but he condemns those who devise wicked schemes.
I want to be a good person who receives favor in the Lord and stay away from wickedly scheming.
3 No one can be established through wickedness,
but the righteous cannot be uprooted.
If I begin a project or business on lies, it will be easily destroyed.
4 A wife of noble character is her husband’s crown,
but a disgraceful wife is like decay in his bones.
Sometimes I wonder is it possible to marry a wife of noble character or is it something your wife evolves into. If it is the latter that means that the husband has to be someone worthy of having a wife of noble character. I hope to be a man who is worthy of a wife of noble character.
5 The plans of the righteous are just,
but the advice of the wicked is deceitful.
Are my plans just and fair? I’m not sure. I’m going to have to get help on this one.
6 The words of the wicked lie in wait for blood,
but the speech of the upright rescues them.
May wise truthful words flow out of my lips for the rest of my life.
7 The wicked are overthrown and are no more,
but the house of the righteous stands firm.
May my house be righteous and stand firm.
8 A person is praised according to their prudence,
and one with a warped mind is despised.
May I be prudent with my life and family. May those praises be directed to God.
9 Better to be a nobody and yet have a servant
than pretend to be somebody and have no food.
I prefer being unknown and being wealthy. Than famous and poor. Perhaps its better to have at least one rather than the other?
10 The righteous care for the needs of their animals,
but the kindest acts of the wicked are cruel.
I don’t have any pets right now. However, I will be kind to the animals I have influence over. God created them after all.
11 Those who work their land will have abundant food,
but those who chase fantasies have no sense.
I need to work my land. I need to first figure out what my land is. Perhaps it is right in front of me. I want to have an excellent life that does great things for God and I hope those are not fantasies. This requires further study.
12 The wicked desire the stronghold of evildoers,
but the root of the righteous endures.
Nothing to comment on this time around… not really sure what it means or how it applies to me right now.
13 Evildoers are trapped by their sinful talk,
and so the innocent escape trouble.
Always be innocently quiet.
14 From the fruit of their lips people are filled with good things,
and the work of their hands brings them reward.
Words can be powerful. Words combined with work brings reward. Would these be promises?
15 The way of fools seems right to them,
but the wise listen to advice.
I don’t want to be a fool. I want to become wise. I need to find wise mentors.
16 Fools show their annoyance at once,
but the prudent overlook an insult.
I’m a fool in the fact that I have no patience. Perhaps its my training as a being a teacher. I look for and try to find the wrong in everything. This is something I need to repent and change in. So many things to grow in and so little discipline.
17 An honest witness tells the truth,
but a false witness tells lies.
Hang around with honest people. Trust your gut.
18 The words of the reckless pierce like swords,
but the tongue of the wise brings healing.
Words are powerful be careful. Use words to heal. This is also another area I am weak in. Another area that requires growth.
19 Truthful lips endure forever,
but a lying tongue lasts only a moment.
Truth lasts forever. I don’t like lying – I hope to keep my lips as honest and truthful as possible.
20 Deceit is in the hearts of those who plot evil,
but those who promote peace have joy.
Must promote peace.
21 No harm overtakes the righteous,
but the wicked have their fill of trouble.
If I stay righteous God will give me an extra layer of protection.
22 The Lord detests lying lips,
but he delights in people who are trustworthy.
Truth and honesty is a consistent pattern through out the Bible. I forget that there are bad people out there sometimes.
23 The prudent keep their knowledge to themselves,
but a fool’s heart blurts out folly.
Prudent people keep knowledge to themselves. This require further study. Does this mean in life in general or work?
24 Diligent hands will rule,
but laziness ends in forced labor.
Diligence will make promote you. Another pattern that reoccurs.
25 Anxiety weighs down the heart,
but a kind word cheers it up.
Kind words can cheer people up. I hope to become someone who is truly kind and cheers people up. I’m the opposite right now – almost an expert and the other.
26 The righteous choose their friends carefully,
but the way of the wicked leads them astray.
Carefully choose your friends and who you hang out with. Something I have been working on yes!
27 The lazy do not roast any game,
but the diligent feed on the riches of the hunt.
28 In the way of righteousness there is life;
along that path is immortality.
Righteousness leads to life and immortality. Not really sure what that means practically.
Thank you for reading this far.
If you can share your thoughts. I would really appreciate it. If you happen to be someone who is diligent please share your tips!