7 “Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8 For everyone who asks receives; the one who seeks finds; and to the one who knocks, the door will be opened.
9 “Which of you, if your son asks for bread, will give him a stone? 10 Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a snake? 11 If you, then, though you are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good gifts to those who ask him! 12 So in everything, do to others what you would have them do to you, for this sums up the Law and the Prophets. – Matthew 7:7-12
I have this negative habit.
I habitually focus on the negative. Perhaps its disease from my job always putting out fires (IT Coordinator) and trying to catch mistakes (English teacher).
I used to say that I am a “realist.”
Unfortunately, thinking this way really doesn’t add value to my life or anyone around me.
My goal is to be preeminent person. Not someone arrogant and proud, but rather humble and provide excellence.
This negative thinking is a habit that needs to be changed.
My family went down to the in-laws to visit Grandparents on Saturday.
This also provided some peace for me and additional help for my wife (Grandma does wonders).
My first daughter, Jeslyn and Kaylee (second daughter) cried on the way there… a three hour drive with screaming children. My wife is strong.
My daughter had to go to the emergency room at 3am on Monday.
She had a very high temperature, dehydrated, diarrhea, and had not eaten for three days.
My mind goes to the worst place.
“Is my daughter going to die?”
Needless to say, it was hard to serve everyone asking for help.
Not the best way to start a brand new school year.
My wife told me we had to wait until 4 pm until the tests from the blood work came back.
From the time my wife gave me a call she was in the hospital at 8 am till 4 pm was a daze and my heart was wrestling with my thoughts.
I don’t want to lose my daughter.
I tried to be positive. I should be grateful for the 32 months I had with her.
Unfortunately, this situation was something out of my control.
One reason- I have my faith is because it provides a framework to help keep you strong and sane.
God its in your hands please tell me its nothing something terminal. Thank you for taking care of my daughter.
However it is your will and if you want her now… I understand.
Thankfully it was a severe case of enteritis, a virus that gets into your small intestine and causes a lot of pain and discomfort.
My wife and I both caught it from bad Chinese food several months ago.
It was the worst pain I’ve ever felt – I remember thinking its better to die then to go through this.
Jeslyn’s condition is unstable so she needs to continue to be admitted for another couple of days, but they say she will make a full recovery.
This whole event actually is a blessing. Due to work, I cannot be at my wife or daughters’ side.
My wife has to be with the first daughter.
My mother-in-law is with my second daughter.
God actually took care of me before I knew it. (My faith in action. Aw yeah!)
I’m grateful to God that even though I am the worst sinner that I know of. He still loves me and my family.
I’m going to keep trying to focus on the good and that’s why I sign my work emails with “With Optimism” and my personal emails with the fruit of the spirit.
I want to be the best for people and believe in the best of people.
I ask you that I can be someone who adds value to those around me.
That they are a little better, happier, and wiser after having interacting with me.
Thank you for loving and taking care of my family and friends (you).
In Jesus name,
Thanks for reading and supporting me in my goals.
God bless you.