I haven’t been able to have consistent quiet times again. Instead of beating myself up again.
I’m going to try something different.
I’ve missed a total of three quiet times thus far. I’m trying to improve dramatically. I don’t want to miss one.
To build a relationship with the creator of the universe should be an honor and something I need to think of more precious.
At midweek tonight, we’ve been going around individually teaching one another about the heroes of faith from Hebrews 11.
Tonight we discussed Gideon, Samson and Abigail.
For those who are unfamiliar: Here’s a brief excerpt… when you get the chance read their stories in the Bible.
Judges 6 – Gideon: Coward, tested God multiple times for signs, eventually becoming a mighty warrior.
Judges 13 – Samson: Prideful, had hulk-like strength, slept with prostitutes, sinned, repented at the end.
1 Samuel 25 – Abigail: Wise, humble, faithful, and resourceful woman, eventually becoming one of King David’s eight wives.
Focus on the Good.
My wife and I had a bump on our way to midweek today.
In hindsight, it was stupid to get angry.
I have this issue of having “high” expectations, misunderstanding, and lack of patience.
Which explodes- when someone I have some expectations for does something stupid, or rather, what I consider stupid.
I learned that I am very prideful and get easily angry.
Both of these sins are not acceptable in God’s Kingdom or even vaguely useful in the society.
I thought I was “justified” in being angry… in the biblical view of things… there is only one time that man is allowed to be angry.
Naturally, I’m not able to do that. It would be best for me to never get angry or be arrogant.
I’ve trained my anger and pride that I am a black belt master in those two skills.
I need to retrain myself so that I am more understanding, patient, and humble.
I’m going to make more of a conscience effort to be humble, more approachable, and ultimately remove these obstacles that don’t help me, my wife, family, friends, or society.
Please pray that I can become humble and patient.
Grace, Love, and Peace be with you always.